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reflective essay

~Blogging has been a tough experience for me because of my poor time management, but if I used the quick writing method we use in class to improve my writing I think I would benefit from it.

8. I don’t like having a blog because I am not a consistent; it hasn’t really changed my writing much though. I have my ups and downs in everything, and that’s were blogging comes in. When I come home I do my math homework, then writing one, then science, then whatever else comes next. The problem with blogging for me is that I almost never have anything relevant to write, then I want to start a story, then I get scared that it will sound stupid and suck because I am just a poet and ONLY a poet. That really needs to change because I am not going to write a poem with 300 words, which would be insanely long. I think my middle school English teacher babied our class because we were not really required to have a word limit on essays or projects so it has become extremely hard to focus when I have a word count because even as I’m writing this I’m staring at the word count SO IT MAKES IT HARDER TO THINK WITH A GIANT 1000 WORD LIMIT!! It’s scary. If I didn’t have to write so much I think I would write about random things and not focus on one topic so it’s good for my writing habits but it’s BAD BAD BAD for my own little faults. So I have to fix myself? It would be good for me if I had a topic generator and think of the blog as a quick write and don’t stop writing until my 10 minutes are up which would be great for me who never has a legitimate or appropriate for my blog. I am not necessarily benefited from waiting to the last minute or treating blog post as if it is not an assignment which doesn’t help. If I changed my mind set blogger would be easier to work with.

My own question: how do quick writing ideas from in class help me make blog post?
Often my quick writes help me get my creativity, and mood right so I can focus on the writing. I think that if I used the quick writing method I would benefit from it. Things that help me most is the time limit, if I didn’t stop to spell check my writing every 3 minutes I don’t think I would be too distracted, If I kept writing without letting myself get distracted by my text messages, Facebook or just plain ol’ goofing off on the internet. I do realize for most it is a temptation that usually is not attempted to be resisted, but I know myself that if I’m on Facebook and trying to make a blog post I’d get distracted. The keep writing rule also helps because it usually leads to me writing in depth about the question, contemplating the topic of the prompt, it’s very hard to explain but you get into a vibe of writing and you fall into a mood of solitude and no one except you, the paper and pen just simply writing, everything is in sync and things are PERFECT for the mood of writing. When we quick writing in class we also have music, this idea I take advantage of because I have my own writing playlist with songs I don’t sing to but can set my mood of writing and determine how happy, depressing, or just random the post will actually be . Also the 3 minutes to plan rule is effective in class because it gives me a chance to brainstorm and determine what I’m going to write about. Altogether quick writing is very useful and even if I decide that my quick write when well I could always just type it out and tweak it to perfection and post

There are several goals that I need to focus on, one of them is procrastinating. I do it way to often and it’s a bad habit and it doesn’t just affect one class it affects all of them another goal I’d like to work on is making my writing sound more adult like in such ways as clarity and detail that my writing often lacks in certain ways.id like to become a better writer over all and not just be a good poetry writer. Even my middle school teacher said that my best subject is poetry when it comes to writing. It sometimes is like frustrating to write a paper and feel great about it then get it back with a mere C+ was a trying too hard or not trying enough. As far as my blog goes I haven’t really written anything relevant like this . I should like go to a topic generator and get topics because although I can make poetry write of the top of my head. My thoughts and ideas are much to free form to really put in writing often when I write I have to have silence but music. and the way the writing sounds reflects my mood which isn’t to great think there really is no actual way for me to be so consistent to where I can keep a blog so I may put my music on my blog so then that way I won’t have to be distracted. usually I just edit and remake old things like projects and essays from eight grade but I’d like to become a more independent writer because I really need to be able to think of ideas of the top of my head and I’m not very good at doing that. It really can be put simply as I’m not really into it. I’ve had many things like quizilla accounts and I never was very consistent so a personal goal to exercise in every aspect is to practice that.

Central Conflict "Of Mice and Men"

The Central conflict in Of Mice and Men is Lennie vs. society; he is a villain to himself and the insensitivity of the people around him doesn’t help him adjust to living normally. Also George, his only companion fuels the flames because he doesn’t particularly care to teach Lennie and help him understand, he just tells him things. All together the plot is wrapped around

Lennie does a great disservice to himself because he depends George tell him what to do. He cannot think for himself, and when he tries to he ends up doing something bad. “George make him stop” Lennie says. That is Lennie down playing himself, setting himself for failure by allowing others to tell him what to do. Yes he is mentally disabled but no he is not unable to use his head. He could be smart but he lets people take advantage of him, for his strength and sometimes for a good laugh.

Insensitivity is also what aids the conflict, lennie is obviously mentally ill, but no one pays him any mind. They don’t stop and have consideration because usually back then a person was wrong and outcast for having mental disabilities. “’Course he ain’t mean. But he gets in trouble alla time because he’s so god damn dumb”, this is a prime example of how people think that him having a disability is a horrible thing.

George is another reason why lennie is so messed up. Most friends give encouragement to their friends, and support them if they are ill in anyway. I doubt that George considers Lennie as a friend because he’s always saying things like “if I was a relative of yours id shoot myself” the irony in this that he was like a relative but he didn’t shoot himself he shot Lennie. If George meant well for lennie and wasn’t so selfish then he would have taught lennie to function. Instead he made his illness worse by taunting him and making fun.

Lennie doesn’t help himself out, and neither doesn’t anyone else. Reading of mice and men made me realize how horribly people treat people, particularly grown people, who are autistic or who have Down syndrome. Luckily for them they have more options then lennie did. He was not helping himself by being dependent, and George and no one else would ever truly treat him as a real person with feelings, that was this short novels main conflict.

of mice and men...

curly wife is a bimbo...

Ever since I was little I asked question after question. That may have been annoying then but If I hadn’t I would not be the young lady I am today. I love math and science however they aren’t my only passions. School is a big part of my life and I always enjoyed school because you get to learn, and not only that you get to learn with friends. I take my education pretty seriously, but I also have a saying “learning is great, but you also needing something fun to balance!” I believe that to be true. The only way you can truly be a great learner is if you also have something other than academics that you enjoy. I enjoy theater, music, dance, singing, and art. I like to believe I can do anything that I put my mind to and, with that mindset I will be great. I have a certain level of simplicity but, when I see that perfect project where I can use all my skills to make it the best I can’t help but get excited. With the attitude of a helper I’ve always wanted to become a doctor because doctors get to help people and engage in medical science, as well as get inside the human body to find cures and disease. I feel that my personality is pretty great I have potential, but that doesn’t mean I can’t improve. Who’s to say that I can’t change? I have changed in the last few months as far as my motivation, which has greatly increased, now that I’m getting toward the end of my last year in middle school.
My studying skills are one thing I can change for the better. I do study but not as much as I should to be the best and so there are times that I don’t want to study, but then I was glad I had studied because it can only help you. My learning skills are quite different though, because my thinking and teaching as a child up until now are different. I learn by repetition so if I repeat something so many times I will understand the concept of it. My parents always taught me the same thing over and over again just so I’d understand it. Whether it be science, math or maybe even language arts I always try to learn as much as I can. There is however a way to improve and that is to try things that are even more challenging and the questions that are the most complicated are the ones I should attack first.

My teachers always tell me I have potential which, in fact is a great complement but they also say my organization skills need to improve. I’ve been putting in more effort towards my work to make it the best it can be. My parents have helped me to be successful as well. They always made sure I had what I needed but never gave me anything I didn’t deserve including punishment. My friends also look out for me. Though I only have a few and the rest are acquaintances we all stick together, helping each other when we are down and making each other laugh. I love my community and the people in it. My town is clean and has a lot of volunteer workers, such as myself, to keep it that way!


My most important accomplishment is my school life in general. I couldn’t possibly be too specific with school. I’ve done many things at school, such as becoming a member of the national junior’s honors society. It was one of the biggest accomplishments of my life. There are also my extra-curricular activities like drama and choir and band. I’ve always been a musically involved person. I love music and acting. Even more than my passion for the arts I have passion for knowledge as well. I love to learn new things even when they are difficult. I have done many things to contribute to the school effort and learning. I often volunteered to help out after school or I’d be going to one of many contests for band or choir. Even when I’m putting on a power point presentation for a class I love to learn and I love the feeling of helping others do their best. My school life is considered a great achievement to me because I’ve never been bad at school and I’ve never gotten bad grades. I even have a wall of accomplishments in my office over my desk and most of the awards are school related. This is something I can be proud of because I can look back and say “wow look at all these accomplishments I’ve achieved in such a short time”. Not only that but I can truly be proud of myself because I am always focused on school no matter what. Also my record of accomplishments is long and worthy of mention because just on what I’ve done in middle school being an honors student for only this year, and still doing great in school is result of my motivation. I think it’s amazing that in only 8th grade most of my teachers have told me that I have an old spirit and that I’m very mature even though sometimes I disagree. I’m glad that my teachers who know me on a personal level can say that I’m not like any other middle school student and that I’m beyond my years in my actions. These are things that I take pride in because they are important to me.

PHOBIA PROJECT :D

phobias ~
Phobias affect many people, mostly in America. All fears have cause a trigger and a cure.

Define phobia?
Phobias are violent irrational fears that can be of many things, from bald people to Germans, that cause little to no harm. Scientist have studied phobias for a few decades, but they have yet to come up with a legitimate scientific reason as to why phobias occur.

Past connections?
All phobias are rooted from fear that wasn’t eased.
They usually develop in early childhood and can be learned by family members or can be caused by a bad experience. Habits developed as a child to calm fears can cause phobias by making the child believe if this tradition or habit isn't done that something bad will happen to them.

Symptoms
Symptoms include, uncontrollable anxiety, the need to get away, knowing you have a phobia, sweating, rapid heart beat, difficulty breathing, feeling of panic, and anxiety at the thought of the object.

Triggers
Fear is natrual to dangerous situations and usually has a trigger. Triggers are situations, people or objects that make you afraid. What can be a trigger exactly? The trigger can be a sight smell or sound that reminds you of that thing you fear. For example if someone has a phobia of fire and smells smoke the smoke would trigger fear and in this case the smoke serves as the trigger.

The circle of fear
Fear and phobia development has a process called the circle of fear.

1.something makes you worry
2. the body responds to this worry.
3. the body sets off other worries
4.worries about future and well being starts
5.Worries about body reactions worsen fears
6.increased fear causes fear of losing control
7.a fear of the fear develops
8. the cycle repeats itself

What phobias cause:
Phobias can cause anxiety disorders,they can change behavior to a point of being disruptive.
Can cause post traumatic stress disorder. A compulsion is feeling like you absolutely have to do something, and an obsession is a constant unwanted thought. OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder) is caused by phobias but is uncommon in younger people with a phobia.
OCD can be a result of or cause a phobia. Phobias can cause substance abuse and social isolation. Men tend to mask their phobias with drinking. “8.7% of Americans have a phobia and are over the age of 18 although phobias appearing in childhood. ”Age groups 11-15 usually suffer from social phobia .

Treatment: coping skills
Coping skills are realistic solution that are used to deal with challenges and icky situations while having a phobia.It uses their past to heal them;Includes deep breathing exercises and imagination techniques.

Treatment: exposure
Exposure pushes a person with a fear to face that fear head on. People who go into exposure therapy in the early stages of an undeveloped phobia can stop it. A person in exposure therapy has to be willing to get rid of their phobia,The last most recent way to cure a phobia is by memory alteration. Scientist say you can stop a phobia by removing the memory of whatever traumatized the person. this process is completed in the 6 hour trauma stage The trauma stage is the 6 hour time period that the circle of fear cycles constantly. Scientist think they can remove that part of the memory before the phobia develops. The only problem is they cannot distinguish bad memory from good memory.

Who Are You Really

Sarah Winchester, a widow driven to insanity had a house like a maze, unsure where you’d end up next. The mansion in California said to be haunted was occupied with one woman and many ghost seeking revenge for their deaths indirectly caused by Oliver Winchester Sarah’s husband. He and Sarah’s daughter died suspiciously and perhaps she’d be the next. To trick the evil souls in her home she made her house into a puzzle, as is the mystery of the Winchester mansion.

Ghosts wander the halls of the Winchester mansion with only one thing on their minds, vengeance. The Winchester’s family before tragedy was known for rifles mainly used in the civil war, and people killed by that weapon sought revenge. Sarah, the wife of the Winchester family, suffered a great loss when her husband and nine day old daughter had passed away, but things took a turn for rock bottom when Sarah went to see a fortune teller.

“There is a curse which took the life of your husband and child... Ghosts roam the halls seeking vengeance because of the weapons created by the Winchesters family... You must flee and build a home for you and spirits who’ve fallen from this terrible weapon. You must never stop building or you will share the same fate and you husband and daughter. Keep building and you will live. Stop and you will die.” Sarah did as told and that’s when havoc spilled into Sarah’s life. She fled to San José, California where she found a 6 room house. It did not stay that way though once what the medium said caught up to her.

“For the next 36 years, they built and rebuilt, altered and changed and constructed and demolished one section of the house after another. She kept 22 carpenters at work, year around, 24 hours each day. The sounds of hammers and saws sounded throughout the day and night.” She built on so much because there where many traps she’d hoped would trick the evil spirits and make them leave. Mishap struck when the San Francisco earthquake of 1906 hit the mansion. Sarah thought of it as punishment for finishing off the front of her home. She boarded up the front so it was never to be finished. One rainy night after conversing with the spirits Sarah Winchester went to sleep. Permanently.

Was Sarah simply off her rocker or is there something, or even someone lurking in the dark halls of the Winchester mansion. There have been many reports of orbs seen floating threw rooms in the mansion. The house is very strange, endless it seems. Sarah was only a misfortunate widow caught in the wrong situation, shaken from loses she suffered, and cursed. even though Sarah seemed crazy there is the slightest chance that the Winchester mansion was indeed infested with chaotic revenge-thirsty so

Q is always so ashamed or so proud. like he's bipolar

Q often goes back and forth between prideful arrogance and shameful embarrassment. In the text Q exhibits prideful arrogance in several situation such as when he says: “ but we had nothing in common with them; on the contrary, our skin, smooth and slippery, was such as no fish ever had”. This shows that he thinks that land animals are more visually pleasing, than old fish. In several cases he obviously forgets where he comes from.

He shows shamefulness when he reflects on Lll’s family who seems to be some of the most civilized land creatures that existed at the time. “her relatives made me a bit ill at ease; hers was one of those families who had become established on earth in the earliest period and had finally become convinced they had never lived anywhere else.” This shows that he feels inferior to land creatures that were born on land, as if he was jealous. Obviously he is somewhat self concious

Lastly, he shows more arrogance when he is speaking with Lll about his uncle, when explaining that they would populate the world as land creatures he says “stop repeating that old fool’s nonsense. The world belongs to those with legs, not to fish, and you know it.” This shows again that he is being proud and discriminative to fish. He’s saying that land creatures are better and are the ones that deserve the world.