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Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Final Reflective Essay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Year round we have been working on various topics and readings in English class, Going from debates to politics and wars to new opportunities and mind boggling symbolic books.
We have been given a reflective essay and I chose to write about my favorite blog post and its inner meaning.() It contains explanations of examples I gave in the blog post about the symbolism of windows in “the house on Mango Street”


Windows is my favorite post. I think this post because it was an assignment that gave hint to a window being a confinement in one way, but a light of hope in another way. I never saw a window as hopeful. It most likely depends on the mindset of the person. As a kid, I lived in the car, I have seen more hrs in a car than an average person will their whole lives. If I had homework, I’d just have to do it in the car. If I had a test the next day, even if it was 2am, it was “oh well sleep in the car”. You can guess how leisure time was treated if sleep and homework were put off for it. Never happened, in fact I bet if I had not started to overachieve in school I’m sure that I would see three places in a day. Home, Car, School. Everyday Home, Car, school (not in order). Yet at the same time I had no real right to complain because of all of the people dying everywhere sleep or no sleep, car or no car. However the windows in the car were the worst part. Car windows defeat the purpose of a Driving lover. The windows a lot you to see a second of something, a driving lover is obviously in the car for 2 reasons. Speed and comfort.
Speed is a reason because obviously if a person had a day to walk somewhere or horse carriage somewhere then they would, but it is quicker and more comfortable to drive. A car, though, is like a box trap, and windows are the sike out. When you look out at the windows onto a mountain, don’t you ever get the erge to touch the mountain, but you can’t. Or in my case, if you were a child and saw seconds of kids playing in a yard laughing and having fun, wouldn’t you want to go laugh play and have fun too. I did. I rarely got to. Instead I saw the same image through the window every time I looked out. I knew where I was so well just from looking out the window I could already tell where I was going. The bad thing about that is that, at this point the new scenes, the “I want that” feeling went away. After seeing it so often, I grew out of it as if I was experiencing it. Growing up for me happened fast as far as mature thinking goes. That is because I spend 12 years of the 15 riding around seeing other people live their lives. But I didn’t get to live mine. I got to sit in a car and look out the window wishing that I could just slow down. Be normal.

“ I can relate, I love to take pictures of nature but I’ve always ridden in a car so there was no way to take a great picture. I used to have to watch the kids play outside though my window while my childhood drifted away, I didn’t have very many friends and sadly no one really wanted to be my friend. So I sat there looking out the window, unsure whether I should go out into the bare coolness of a shallow friendship that has no real important. Or watch what it looks like to grow up being friends with only one person. Today I still look outside the car window, but I have my own camera to capture what I wish I could just step out of the car to see.”

I’m pretty sure when I wrote this I was thinking of exactly what I wrote and quoted. Feeling somewhat trapped because there was no way to avoid running into the situation. The women in the story were trapped because they were too beautiful and were held back by parents or husbands. That leads into another type of being trapped.

“These are just examples of women who are alone, depressed and feel as though they have no outlet.”

The insider on this statement is basic. I always feel to a certain extent trapped in my own thoughts giving no outlet. The only way to let things out for me was to sing, and then I got into drawing, then writing poems. However it doesn’t undo the confinement. Writing or not it still never changes the fact that someone Is lonely. I have my sister as an example as well. A pretty deep story she told me exhibited how trap she was as a teenager living with the world’s most pestering mom. She could never go anywhere because she had to babysit me. So she turned to drawing as her window. But as soon as she got more attached to me than her window, she never was able to escape until she left home. The drawing opportunity was no longer an option because she had to give it up. That was her dream, but her desire was to just enjoy her teen life. She didn’t really get to do much of that and spent it moving around looking for that magical outlet that she lost once she stopped drawing. Then her window became me. She spent so much time with me that I loved her just as much as I loved my mother. Yet her confinement continued. The petty punishments continued, and she endured it to her escape. My sister unlike the women I talked about in my post was able to get out of her trap but only by one way. She stopped staring out the window, got out of the chair, left out the door and went far away (college), Resuming her school career briefly. I took this horribly because she was like a mother to me and I love my sister so much that her pain is my pain. I feel a little like Esparanza because I have a way to get out. With 3 other siblings from my mother’s side to tell me what not to do, I pave my way into the to do’s.

I guess I do figure that everything is a way for a reason and my post was this way for those reasons. It is my favorite because It related most to what I said in the story and is the deepest one that I have written almost. My writing goals for the summer are to write and read at all. Most kids don’t do jack squat during the summer, especially writing so i want to be a little different and not forget how to "read big words" (LOL). I hope I’ll be able to check out 6 goooooood long books and just read my way out of the madness!

Friday, May 6, 2011

final draft of review

The title of my book is Impulse. It is one of 7 or 6 books by the same author with the same genre. The author is Ellen Hopkins, the genre of this book can go under romance, and drama. It has many tragedies. The subject of the book is abusive family relationships
Connor is the first main character introduced. He’s a ladies man, but his relationship with his parents absolutely sucks, due to their lack of emotional communication and care . Vanessa is the the second main character. She is what people would call emo, she cuts cuts cuts away, she and her mom don’t get along so well since her mom is nutty. And tony is the third main character. He is gay, or at least that’s what he says. His parents both neglected him his dad left him and his mom and his mom paid him no attention. Even when he cried out to her she bitterly shot down his reason for crying and blamed him. Any who all of them are brought together under one roof. The mental institution. Their relationships changed constantly as they weave in and out of drama with themselves, their parents, and others like them , and weirdo’s not so much like them.

-compare the book to a book by the same author
I’m reading impulse and I haven’t read identical. Crank and glass are centered on the drug, love, and sex life of the main character Kristina who has 3 children. In fallout her children go one with their lives similar to hers after her transition to bad girl. Burned was about another girl who was sent away from her Mormon household for assault to her aunt’s house. They are all very similar, the one I’m reading now is most like fallout. In impulse the kids are neglected by their parents, specifically their druggy or cruel mothers and walking out fathers.
Fallout is most like impulse of all of them because it also has a 3 person POV. This has 2 of one gender and 1 of another. The difference is fallout is a continuation of the lives of a druggie mother while impulse starts off with the whole drugs fixation. In fallout the 3 characters have problems like lies, drug use, sexual abuse, cheating, and illegal stuff or rebellion.
In impulse each character has their own problem which links together by a suicide attempt at all 3 of them. Tony had drug use problems and father problem; in the book often we question his sexuality because he has a liking for Vanessa. Vanessa was into self mutilation and has a schizophrenic mom. Conner had problems with dating an older woman and competing for Vanessa’s attention. Patterns in the book usually include: drug use, religion, sex, rebellion, and false illusions of love. Her books also don’t usually have 100% happy endings. In burned someone lost their child, in crack someone got raped, and in glass someone got sent to prison.
The major differences between fallout are that the three main characters in fallout are related to each other, doomed to walk in their mothers footsteps, fallout has 2 books before it to explain their mother that has a great effect on them, and they all are linkedand act similar.
In impulse the characters don’t act the same, they kids walk in their own footsteps, it is one of the series of books, and they all have their own individual problem
Extra own questions purpose, character relationship combo-

Purpose: I’m sure that Ellen Hopkins’s purpose was to give readers a taste of the hard and real life. With many twist and turns in each one of her books she takes strips of real lives, real stories and combines it with the main characters common misfortune that she/he usually suffers. Most of her books have characters that practice at some point self hate and become liars and players. But by the end of each book the problem they had at first is blown up or destroyed completely. I think what she does by doing this is creates a way to compare her characters. I have just started a new book by her thanks to Karen Chavez . And so far my point in the book is not very far in but there are already factors of secrets. Hate, love, sex, and bad parents. Somehow in each book she also manages to incorporate those things into the plot as well as drugs. It is a reasonable idea that Ellen Hopkins wrote these books to appeal to a more pessimistic crowd since very few things is this book are optimistic. As I have gone on farther than before I realized that these three characters are all linked together. In fallout they are more distant. This is important because then it’s easier to make the connection between them all.



In impulse for tony he hates his mom, dislikes his dad, and despises the man who raped him. For Vanessa she hates her mom to a certain extent and she hates herself for a point of time in the book. For Conner he hates a lot of people mainly his parents because they don’t care for him. His dad pretends to care and just only cares about grades, his mom only cares about the same with grades and all but also about sports and her expectations.

As far As love goes, tony loves Vanessa, Connor, and his closest friend Phillip. Vanessa and tony develop a special relationship. Vanessa thought she loved her ex boyfriend, but she didn’t. However she did start to fall for tony; however he and Conner also shared something special. Connor’s love situation was most complicated, didn’t love either of his parents and neither of them loved him. He was neglected so much that in the end of his challenge in mental camp he commits suicide after everyone receives their parent letter. His simply says we have standards; you follow them, get good grades and stay in shape. However his strange lust for older women was cause by the lack of care and compassion his mother showed him, and it causes him to commit suicide after he feels alone because Vanessa and tony have each other.

In the end the book shows how anything can effect someone’s feelings. And any small thing can push someone over the edge. However in Connors case it was no small thing, he felt unloved. All the people he wanted love from were unable to give it. It encourages everyone to be careful because you never know someone else’s situation

Sunday, May 1, 2011

book response

The title of my book is Impulse. It is one of 7 or 6 books by the same author with the same genre. The author is Ellen Hopkins, the genre of this book can go under romance, and drama. It has many tragedies. The subject of the book is abusive family relationships

Connor is the first main character introduced. He’s a ladies man, but his relationship with his parents absolutely sucks, due to their lack of emotional communication and care . Vanessa is the the second main character. She is what people would call emo, she cuts cuts cuts away, she and her mom don’t get along so well since her mom is nutty. And tony is the third main character. He is gay, or at least that’s what he says. His parents both neglected him his dad left him and his mom and his mom paid him no attention. Even when he cried out to her she bitterly shot down his reason for crying and blamed him. Any who all of them are brought together under one roof. The mental institution. Their relationships changed constantly as they weave in and out of drama with themselves, their parents, and others like them , and weirdos not so much like them.

Ellen had all of them, I’m reading impulse and I haven’t read identical. Crank and glass are centered on the drug, love, and sex life of the main character Kristina who has 3 children. In fallout her children go one with their lives similar to hers after her transition to bad girl. Burned was about another girl who was sent away from her Mormon household for assault to her aunt’s house. They are all very similar, the one I’m reading now is most like fallout. In impulse the kids are neglected by their parents, specifically their druggy or cruel mothers and walking out fathers. The fallout is most like impulse of all of them because it also has a 3 person POV. This has 2 of one gender and 1 of another. The difference is fallout is a continuation of the lives of a druggie mother while impulse starts off with the whole drugs fixation. In fallout the 3 characters have problems like lies, drug use, sexual abuse, cheating, and illegal stuff or rebellion. In impulse each character has their own problem which links together by a suicide attempt at all 3 of them. Tony had drug use problems and father problem; in the book often we question his sexuality because he has a liking for Vanessa. Vanessa was into self mutilation and has a schizophrenic mom. Conner had problems with dating an older woman and competing for Vanessa’s attention. Patterns in the book usually include: drug use, religion, sex, rebellion, and false illusions of love. Her books also don’t usually have 100% happy endings. In burned someone lost their child, in crack someone got raped, and in glass someone got sent to prison. It is a reasonable idea that Ellen Hopkins wrote these books to appeal to a more pessimistic crowd since very few things is this book are optimistic. As I have gone on farther than before I realized that these three characters are all linked together. In fallout they are more distant. This is important because then it’s easier to make the connection between them all.

9. –purpose, character relationship combo-
Purpose: I’m sure that Ellen Hopkins’s purpose was to give readers a taste of the hard and real life. With many twist and turns in each one of her books she takes strips of real lives, real stories and combines it with the main characters common misfortune that she/he usually suffers. Most of her books have characters that practice at some point self hate and become liars and players. But by the end of each book the problem they had at first is blown up or destroyed completely. I think what she does by doing this is creates a way to compare her characters. I have just started a new book by her thanks to Karen Chavez . And so far my point in the book is not very far in but there are already factors of secrets. Hate, love, sex, and bad parents. Somehow in each book she also manages to incorporate those things into the plot as well as drugs.

In impulse for tony he hates his mom, dislikes his dad, and despises the man who raped him. For Vanessa she hates her mom to a certain extent and she hates herself for a point of time in the book. For Conner he hates a lot of people mainly his parents because they don’t care for him. His dad pretends to care and just only cares about grades, his mom only cares about the same with grades and all but also about sports and her expectations.

As far As love goes, tony loves Vanessa, Connor, and his closest friend Phillip. Vanessa and tony develop a special relationship. Vanessa thought she loved her ex boyfriend, but she didn’t. However she did start to fall for tony; however he and Conner also shared something special. Connor’s love situation was most complicated, didn’t love either of his parents and neither of them loved him. He was neglected so much that in the end of his challenge in mental camp he commits suicide after everyone receives their parent letter. His simply says we have standards; you follow them, get good grades and stay in shape. However his strange lust for older women was cause by the lack of care and compassion his mother showed him, and it causes him to commit suicide after he feels alone because Vanessa and tony have each other.

In the end the book shows how anything can effect someone’s feelings. And any small thing can push someone over the edge. However in Connors case it was no small thing, he felt unloved. All the people he wanted love from were unable to give it. It encourages everyone to be careful because you never know someone else’s situation